My little angel, Loretta

I put down Loretta on June 13, 2012...it was a really really tough decision. But, I am sure I made the right one... I miss her so much..I really can't say much else right now. It hurts too much.

When everything else around you falls apart...how do you stay together?

The downfall

Workout and beer during the night. Win.
Going to work the next "morning" when the moon is still out. Fail.
Getting coffee since it is so early, but having a barista-in-training make it. Epic Fail.

Alone

It's those times when I feel so physically and mentally exhausted and I finally take a second to pause that I realize how lonely I am. I miss him more than I am willing to admit...I am truly heartbroken, but I don't want to let myself feel that way. I'm just trying to keep myself so busy, but when I finally stop, the sadness overcomes me.
I had a dream last night that we were still together...I wish I never woke up from that dream.

Donated blood for the first time on Tuesday. It felt good to do good.
Cut my hair. Big changes.
Got a new piercing. Some things never change.
Going kayaking tomorrow.
Reading a book for fun.
Went to the gym.

Being productive feels good.

It's time to start being okay with being alone. If I want to be happy, I am the one who can make that happen.

Resolutions for this month:
work out at least 3 times a week
go kayaking
cook fresh vegetables once a week
new haircut

I will make these things happen. I can be happy by myself.



(Looking back..I only accomplished half of the resolutions I set in 2009...)

Take control of your life

Don't waste time on things you can't control. Spend times on things you can control.