Vulnerability space

When I am with you
You are my vulnerability space
I can tell you stories of my past
Knowing you won't pass judgment
I can tell you every tidbit of my day
From the amazing to the downright embarrassing
And you'll be intrigued with every word I say
I can express to you all the hopes, fears, and dreams of my future
Share with you my life plans
And you'll wonder if those plans include you
I can laugh with you until I can't breathe
Until my laugh sounds like there's no sound coming out at all
Until my face is as red as the tomatoes you know I hate
And, in a tickle fight in which I have no chance in
You do that to me
I can cry on your shoulders, in the palms of your hands, in the crook of your neck
Because I know that every fiber that is you will wish that it could be my tissue
Be the person who can take the pain away
You are my vulnerability space

But what happens when the one I want to hold me the most is the one who has made me sad
What happens when my vulnerability space becomes the face of someone that I can't even look at
Where do I turn to then
When my vulnerabilities are no longer a place of love
When they become weaknesses that get taken advantage of
When the sweet care in your voice becomes tainted with resent
When my tears no longer have a place to fall but down my cheeks and to the ground
When every glimmer of hope to be happy again gets shut down
When my vulnerability space becomes a place of anger
One that no longer wants to take me in
Where do I turn to then

At that moment
I need my vulnerability space
To be there for me once again